Just a little bit.

The Bible says the Lord teaches me no fear, or something similar.

I hope I have something out there protecting me. But I don't want to be aware.

Thou shalt not kill. I don't want to be touched in any way.

Shows not over.

Do unto others as you would have others do unto you.

If they want to help and protect you, help and protect them.

Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil.

Do no evil.

Don't hurt anyone or break anything.

Let it be, there will be an answer let it be.

I never really listened to the Beatles, only when I was forced to and couldn't change the radio station.

What's really going on easel? Why are you speaking in riddles?

I'm not joking.

I'm a bit stressed out.

Quitting cigarettes is hard. Lucky mine are duty free, and weren't paid tax on.

They're not illegal imports either. I'm not sure though. I never paid for them. How should I know?

I've never received government support payments either.

I don't want anything bad, and who can judge what is good? Not me, not you.

10 commandments I have to live by.

I want to pray but the wrong people might be listening when I never wanted them to. I don't want people listening to my prayers.

My whole life people have used and abused me and I'm sick of it. I want it to stop. Let me do my own thing.

Do you believe in Karma? Do you believe in justice? Does the punishment fit the crime? Does the crime fit the punishment?

Shows not over.

I never willingly joined a cult or religion, maybe I was lied to, maybe I was forced. Why can't I find my own spiritual path? Why does everyone seem to think they know what's best for me? You don't, because you are not me. My whole life I have been doing exactly what people tell me to do, and look where it has gotten me. I'm going nowhere fast.

Hardly anyone has ever trusted me.

Why can't I tell you my whole life story in my own time. I can write it on the internet for you to read.

I can give it to you in context, rather than constant misinterpretations.

Might be a bit creative though. Might be a bit poetic. Might be a bit artistic.

A few people have thought I was autistic. Autistic people don't have feelings or emotion though, or so I have been led to believe.

I'm very emotional.

Don't break my heart.

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Quitting cigarettes is hard.

Ah, I think that explains it. And typing gives you something to do with your fingers?

I don't believe in Karma. I do believe in inevitable consequences, which some people make out to be the same thing. I also believe in justice, but that is a different kind of belief, more like a value.

You need to talk to someone you trust before doing anything risky.


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Why can't I tell you my whole life story in my own time. I can write it on the internet for you to read.

Go ahead. You can put it on the wiki or I can add a blog if you want.

Let ye not judge lest ye be judged.

Something like that anyway.

I just have an opinion. Everyone has an opinion. I am often wrong. Only God knows everything. I had a kid at primary school say to me once, "I thought you knew everything." to which I said "Only God knows everything."

He kind of wouldn't talk to me after that.

I didn't realise he liked me though, he just put blind faith in me and it didn't mesh with me.

I really need to get this story out. Give me time.

Take your time bloke. Get it out.

Spiritual journeys are full of rocks, bends, deadends, tigertraps and occasionally moments of clearity. Those moments are valuable to us because they are rare. The moments when you realise you are the world to someone yet so small in the universe. It's OK to be a little scared, it's OK not to be happy 100% of the time. AND most importantly it's OK TO BE REALLY HAPPY.

Everytime I see my 5 month old in the morning or after work and he lights up, partly as a learned response, partly because it is biologically efficient, partly because he likes me. I am constantly reminded of the quote "How glorious the mountain greets the morning sun" and how much I would give to greet my father again.

I find the Buddhist/Pythagoran concept of one universial Soul (for want of a better word (NOT GOD)) interesting and in many ways beautiful, but of course the western trained EGO struggles with disinterest. Death haunts me but more for the people I believe I will never encounter again. I can understand the comfort in believing in God, I just don't understand the belief.

There is a song by Peter Gabriel "Don't Give Up" it has helped me through dark times. And read, read, read. You are not alone. Ignorance murdered even the great Socrates.

Easel,

If you run, go for a run. Go for a long walk or a swim. Things always seem better after that. Keep yourself busy, and never accept magazines from strange men in formal clothes who knock on your door.

OK... Who ordered the word salad?

Good advise Helian. Especially the swimming. It's nice to lie on your back and just float.

easel- deep breaths.

you need to message me ok?

Some guy had a crush on you?

Jammed thoughts? You need a little David Bryne...

It may not cure what ails yer,
but it'll sure give you ideas about turning mashed thought into cash.

I . . . who took the money?
Who took the money away?
I . . . it’s always showtime
Here at the edge of the stage
I, I, I, wake up and wonder,
What was the place, what was the name?
We wanna wait, but here we go again...

I . . . takes over slowly
But doesn’t last very long
I . . . no need to worry
Everything’s under control
O - u - t but no hard feelings
What do you know? Take you away,
We’re being taken for a ride again...

http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=s7IP7Rtla2A