Lisa Jones wrote on Jan 22
nd, 2018 at 10:25pm:
freediver wrote on Jan 22
nd, 2018 at 10:20pm:
If you ever wonder where the inspiration for that scene from the movie alien came from, watch a video of a caesarian.
Ok so here's a dad!
And he's proven it.
Now you know why I can't watch any Alien movie.
I get episodic flashbacks of the trauma I experienced at childbirth.
Oh and my pregnancy long morning sickness episodes has left me with a chronic fear of breakfast.
I STILL throw up if I attempt to eat anything before 11 am.
I do sometimes wonder if I've been left with some form of post traumatic stress.
Like I said.... I'm going to lie to my kids and pretend it was all lovely and awesome. I've already been doing that anyway. I don't want my awful experiences/issues thrust onto them! It will affect them in a negative way for sure!
I will say this though....I'm very thankful for medical technology. My obstetricians concluded that my body just couldn't go into labor despite everything they tried. 35 hrs after being induced I dilated 1 cm. Foetal monitors showed foetal distress (I was 1 week overdue too). I was rushed into theatre and I remember trying to cry. I just couldn't produce a tear because of the shock I was in. Oh and I was being shouted at by very concerned doctors about how my life and that of my babies was in danger. Bloody hell I can still see it all. There was this theatre nurse running behind the trolley trying to put this green cap on my head. It was like a shower cap. She couldn't catch up. The loud thud of doors followed by bright white lights and stainless steel and people screaming in panic then sudden total silence and utter blackness followed.
When I woke up I did so because I felt sudden sharp stabbing pains in my abdomen. So yeah I woke up in shock screaming my guts out because I thought I had been stabbed and the sharp blades were still inside me. The pain was and is still indescribable.
A sudden rush of medical staff and I heard someone say Oh my God she's in shock. I just couldn't help it I was shaking. I was hot/cold and shaking like I was having a fit. I then remember feeling heaven. It was just at that point I heard someone say I've given her too much morphine. I recall smiling as I collapsed back into my pillows.
All my deliveries were pretty much like that. The stuff of bloody awful nightmares!
So yeah....I definitely need to hide all this stuff from my kids.
They're just too beautiful and I love them too much to terrify them with such details.
Anyway....night all 💤💤💤💤i