Valkie wrote on Dec 5^th, 2021 at 6:10pm:
  I dont know if you are a coward or not, I personally think its a bullsh1t word, like heroes. people who avoid violence are smart in my opinion. Ive come across people I wouldnt want to challenge either, but I dont challenge people generally, if Im challenged I stand my ground. Im not a hero, Im not a coward, Im just a person. Stupid bullsh1t words. I deride you because of your constant need to present yourself as some sort of tough guy, who cares mate.  I have lived a life of violence,   Ive gone weeks without sleep where I want to stick a knife in  my skull and gouge out the memories. And theres nothing you can do, pills dont work, I need to be mentally and physically exhausted to sleep, and I dont sleep, I collapse. Hyper vigilance prevents it, and man I cry. I cry every day, many times a day sometimes, I cry for my lost child and friends and I cry for the people I couldnt help. I cried sitting in traffic today. 2 years ago I lost Ben, he was newly married and committed suicide, I spoke to him 2 days before, he seemed ok, i was thinking about catching up with him, when I think about it later, he was reaching out, and I missed it. Ive lost a number of colleagues and friends this way. Im not tough Valkie/Mechanic , whoever the f you want to call yourself,  you are right. I dont know what tough is, I know how to deal with violence but that doesnt make me tough, It makes me weak. I couldnt kill anyone. The older I get the weaker I get, sometimes i experience  severe anxiety, its from fight or flight I cant turn off. I spent an hour yesterday pacing up and down the lounge room like a dog in cage. My wife leaves me alone when Im  like that, the effect on her is also what I cry about. The psyche told me I have it for life, the only thing they have is anti depressants , my child was on anti depressants. Violence isnt fun or glamorous and hero is an over used word if it means anything. Im broken and Im tired. I dont normally watch movies ,I dont have the attention span, thats what it does to you, I havent been able to read a book all the way though for years. There is no joie da vivre for me. I barely cope. People look at me in public and turn away, they are scared of what they see. And I dont like crowds and I dont like people. Go ahead be whatever you want, but be careful what you wish for.

Valkie wrote on Dec 5^th, 2021 at 6:10pm:
  I dont know if you are a coward or not, I personally think its a bullsh1t word, like heroes. people who avoid violence are smart in my opinion. Ive come across people I wouldnt want to challenge either, but I dont challenge people generally, if Im challenged I stand my ground. Im not a hero, Im not a coward, Im just a person. Stupid bullsh1t words. I deride you because of your constant need to present yourself as some sort of tough guy, who cares mate.  I have lived a life of violence,   Ive gone weeks without sleep where I want to stick a knife in  my skull and gouge out the memories. And theres nothing you can do, pills dont work, I need to be mentally and physically exhausted to sleep, and I dont sleep, I collapse. Hyper vigilance prevents it, and man I cry. I cry every day, many times a day sometimes, I cry for my lost child and friends and I cry for the people I couldnt help. I cried sitting in traffic today. 2 years ago I lost Ben, he was newly married and committed suicide, I spoke to him 2 days before, he seemed ok, i was thinking about catching up with him, when I think about it later, he was reaching out, and I missed it. Ive lost a number of colleagues and friends this way. Im not tough Valkie/Mechanic , whoever the f you want to call yourself,  you are right. I dont know what tough is, I know how to deal with violence but that doesnt make me tough, It makes me weak. I couldnt kill anyone. The older I get the weaker I get, sometimes i experience  severe anxiety, its from fight or flight I cant turn off. I spent an hour yesterday pacing up and down the lounge room like a dog in cage. My wife leaves me alone when Im  like that, the effect on her is also what I cry about. The psyche told me I have it for life, the only thing they have is anti depressants , my child was on anti depressants. Violence isnt fun or glamorous and hero is an over used word if it means anything. Im broken and Im tired. I dont normally watch movies ,I dont have the attention span, thats what it does to you, I havent been able to read a book all the way though for years. There is no joie da vivre for me. I barely cope. People look at me in public and turn away, they are scared of what they see. And I dont like crowds and I dont like people. Go ahead be whatever you want, but be careful what you wish for.

Mod. wrote on Mar 30^th, 2021 at 9:08am:


When will you enforce this RULE?

After Christmas?

Asking for a friend 🤭

Lisa Jones wrote on Dec 6^th, 2021 at 4:12pm:



Aussie enforces that rule for everyone except his mates:
Monk, Smith , Greggy, Jim & LTYC.

Bobby. wrote on Dec 6^th, 2021 at 6:46pm:



Goober, have you come out of the closet yet? I'm only asking because AIA wants to know.

Look at all the gay fantasies from you blokes -
you're not all homos are you?

Not that .....

Mod. wrote on Mar 30^th, 2021 at 9:08am:


When will you enforce this RULE?

After Christmas?

Asking for a friend 🤭