Aurora Complexus wrote on Nov 23
rd, 2024 at 8:33pm:
Rocky: no bad feelings though, about how you "think you know who I am."
Guys typically enjoy drugs more than girls do, so it's quite common that guys get a girl into drugs and then dump her when she can't hack it.
And that's the most cynical and self-blaming way to describe the disaster that happened with my girlfriend. I thought we were breaking up by mutual agreement. I went to my own place whenever some guy she fancied came to visit (and she had her own place btw, a place I practically never went.) She would go to town with the older woman who lived on the same commune, and I don't know if they were doing smack or doing guys, because I never asked. I thought we both good hippies in that respect: an open marriage, without actual marriage.
I am very certain that we broke up because she wanted to have a kid, and I didn't. It's my fault that she did so many drugs, but when we left each other it was because we didn't want each other any more.
We were both adults. We didn't need to "break up" and we didn't need to pretend to be friends. There was a difference of life plan which could not be reconciled. I'm very sad about it, but I don't feel guilty at all.
I will tell you another "loser" story about myself: I decided to stay single when I turned 29 years of age. I had almost given up on life. The trouble is that I did not know that I had a few stalkers who were trying to decide my fate. One such dickhead to give me trouble happened to be my teenage son. He was such a retard that I started to wonder if he really was my son. But, it turned out that his mother could not get pregnant with her husband and insisted on the affair with a teenager not even of legal age. Long story short, the child grew up to become a narcissistic personality disordered psychopath, because his mother was more interested in protecting her reputation with damage controlled pampering of her son than to try and enforce a life of discipline and hard work ethics. I felt so sorry for her husband. But, atleast the dick-breath decided to quit on the whole community and move on to be with his Allah. Unf
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ckingbelievable. All that was left was to deal with his dipshid boyfriends who thought they were tough. But, they have given up trying to avenge their bucket.
I was not a very good person in my 20s. But, at least I owned the faults I had. Even when I had exceptional circumstances that granted me the right to lawfully kill someone, I decided against doing so. This stoicism has given me a good reputation around town, and a clean criminal record. However, these last few weeks have been very trying for me that politics and the next Federal election might be what determines whether I have to take matters into my own hands.
You talk about taking drugs in your youth. Unless I misread, you admitted to being a paedophile. You are basically my enemy. I had dated a few emergency workers in my time. Not for long. It was obvious that their choice of career was at odds with my personality. I'm autistic, and I tend to overthink things. If my girlfriend or wife was shot whilst on duty, how would I react? I could only rationalise things by thinking about how I managed to survive harsh ordeals that included preventing the death of a female police officer with some quick thinking.
Can you imagine being alive only due to having a mental condition that allows you to blur out the emotional side of things and see things in terms of long-term planning? Can you also imagine having your plans thwarted by people that know you have long-term planning and options available that lead them to eradicate the most fortuitous goals? I have enemies that block my upwardly mobile standard of living, out of a matter of being jealous that they did not plan for their future. I was almost a vigilante the other week. And then I realised that they had their reasons why they opted to do what they do. Now, I have to refocus my energies for next week's trials of revenge.
Drugs and paedophilia: What a combination! I have had my own battles with alcohol. But, given the worst that it does me is to lose a day's wages through the cost of alcohol consumption and the hangover feeds that I have to have to recover, it is not an issue too much for a once a month drinker.
My issue with drug users is that you would have had a supplier. I know where the supply is coming from. I know where it is going. What irritates me the most is the hero-homicidalist mindset of the state and federal governments in allowing this to continue, whilst the law-abiding people of this country have to suffer the social and financial consequences.
Paedophilia is one of the consequences of taking drugs. Your mind does not care when it is drug-affected. Trust me, I kissed a 14 y.o. girl on her forehead to comfort her about her drug-affected father's abuse. What I got from that attempt to settle her down? Being mislabeled her boyfriend. And trying to talk that young lady out of treating me in a blackmailed way was just another reason she added to her suicidal tendencies. But, atleast she settled down as a 17 y.o.