UnSubRocky wrote on Dec 3
rd, 2024 at 8:48pm:
This thought had been ruminating in my head for quite some time. I was practising thinking about how to say it, when I was out for my walk. I had decided that I will never get married, and probably will be alone for a long time.
I mean, what I have got to gain? I have been hurt too many times to be bothered trying for something new. Perhaps I will date again. But, at 45 years of age, I have decided to just let my children grow up and be their own adult selves.
Of particular, I have had relationships that ended not much longer than when they started. Sometimes it is a self-inflicted problem. Other times it is the other person.
1. I have had issues where an ex had been using me as the "loser ex-boyfriend" so that she could make her current partner feel better about himself. "At least you are not him" she would point me out saying to her boyfriend.
2. A 17 y.o. girl has started to stalk me, as a result of when I would try to comfort her about her abuse, when she was 14 years old. One hug to settle her down, and all of a sudden I am her 42 y.o. boyfriend.
3. The fact that I work at a restaurant with a staff of age ranges 15 to 25 years of age, I have been ordered to keep quiet and be thought of as a fool. Rather than to open my mouth and make everyone else seem like intellectual absentees. Who the **** does not read a book these days or watch a movie?
So, I sit at home and drink. And play computer games. And read. And keep away from the outside world. When I am at work, I cannot wait to keep away from the staff that are more interested in their phones than what goes on in politics.
My life has gone from having everything ahead of me, to it being all over in a matter of 8 years. I have never been so disappointed in society in all my life.
Just be happy if you're alone -
you don't have anyone annoying you or complaining about you.
If friends want to see you they can as long as you do too.
If not then they are probably not good friends anyway.
Get a dog or a cat - get both -
as long as you're in a steady location and don't have to go away and leave them.